I guess my existence opened the gates of hell for my mother. I feel sorry for her because she gave birth to an ugly offspring not to mention I am a barbaric bitch who made their lives a living hell. I hope I die in my sleep or something so that they don’t need to raise a worthless child like me.

0 notes __Apr 3rd
# personal thoughts inner demons i really hope i die early

All my friends would tell me I am not fat but yeah I don’t believe them. But it’s so hard to hear my mom tell me i am fat, i need to shed weight and stuff. She wants me to be as sexy/thin as those girls in france where she works.Sometimes I wish she’d shut up about it because it is not helping my depression which my whole family don’t know about.

0 notes __Mar 29th
# personal self-loathe depression

Baby ❤️

9,474 notes __Mar 25th __Source
# fave personal
kushandwizdom:

Good Vibes HERE

12,053 notes __Mar 22nd __Source
# things i tell alot but this is exactly the things i badly wanted to hear personal fave

This week, I have been my most straight forward self that you can brush it off as bitchy. But to tell you frankly, I’m not even sure where all this straight-forwardness are coming from since I am close to never straight-forward; I’m bot sure if it’s the sleep deprivation growing on me or the stress due to my nearing debut or the fact that I don’t care about people anymore or all of it. But for me all I can say is that being so fucking down and anxious for almost a month made me feel less considerate about people who never considered my feelings or my depression.

0 notes __Mar 14th
# personal rants shit

I was dead tired last night so I slept early. And now I woke so fricking early. And tbh I really miss waking up this early.

0 notes __Mar 12th
# personal

Inner demons are getting uncontrollable tonight. I hope I stay sane enough not to do anything rather than my homework.

1 note __Mar 10th
# personal thoughts shitty week
03.07.14
Planned hang out never works, unplanned ones are just the best.

Miss this two a lot! The last time I saw them was before christmas last year.

03.07.14
Planned hang out never works, unplanned ones are just the best.

Miss this two a lot! The last time I saw them was before christmas last year.

1 note __Mar 8th
# bestfriends selca guy bestfriends personal

I want to rant my feelings out but Nope I cannot, not here not anywhere anymore. And tbh nobody cares so why bother. Let me just keep it all inside :bd

0 notes __Mar 4th
# shitty day personal depression
I was checking all the old files from my computer when I saw some of my pictures back in high school (senior year)

And tbh, it made me more depress to see I was okay looking two years ago and that I was so okay with my body back then, well not all throughout high school because from freshmen to junior i was really fat but yeah -.-“

I was checking all the old files from my computer when I saw some of my pictures back in high school (senior year)

And tbh, it made me more depress to see I was okay looking two years ago and that I was so okay with my body back then, well not all throughout high school because from freshmen to junior i was really fat but yeah -.-“

0 notes __Mar 4th
# personal me me two years ago fuck selca throwback